Not a finished product
Hi, I’m the guy behind Clearheaded & Committed.
This started as a way to keep myself honest. Turns out other people needed to hear “me too” as much as I did.
I flip a tire in my garage most mornings. I’ve counted dry days on my fingers and then lost count on purpose. I’ve cried in a parking lot after a good therapy session and felt like a fraud the next week. All of it is here — the reps and the relapses, the long runs and the short fuses.
Why do this in public
Because privacy let me hide.
01
I used to only tell half the story
The version of me at parties was doing “so much better.” The version of me at 2am was not. Writing publicly closes that gap — there’s only one version now, and it has to be true.
02
Accountability beats willpower
I’m not disciplined enough to keep promises only I can hear. Knowing someone might read Tuesday’s post makes Tuesday’s choices a little harder to fudge.
03
Someone else is mid-mess too
I looked for this kind of honest, unfinished story when I started and mostly found highlight reels. If this saves someone a few years of feeling alone in it, worth it.
“I’m not writing about the man I used to be, and I’m definitely not writing about the man I’ll be someday. Just this guy, this week, trying again.”
Some weeks the posts are proud — a personal best on the tire flips, forty days without a drink, a genuinely calm Sunday. Other weeks they’re not. I still publish those too.
Then
The wake-up call
A doctor’s visit, a scale I avoided, and a hangover that lasted into a work meeting. That was the week I started paying attention instead of pretending.
Now
Building in the open
A garage full of secondhand equipment, a trail bike with too many miles on the drivetrain, and a therapist I actually show up for.
Always
Still figuring it out
No finish line here. Just documenting the middle, honestly, one post at a time — setbacks included.
Follow the mess, not the highlight reel.
New posts land whenever something real happens to write about — sometimes weekly, sometimes after a long quiet stretch. Either way, I’d love the company.
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Want to say hi, ask a question, or tell me your own story? I read every message.